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This is a question asked by Faust and answered by Mephistopheles.

“… who are you, then?”
“I am part of that power
which eternally wills evil
and eternally works good.”

Can someone please explain what this means? Is this how true evil works? It is a quote that really resonates with me but I don't fully understand it.

>>16158143

vile boy
Do we live in a deterministic machine
Everything written in stone
Since the dawn of time
... Or do we have free will..
Etching our consciousness into the
Fabric of the universe
From one moment to the next
That is the question
But I am too weak
And too fearful
To believe in such majesty
I choose the easy way
foul boy
soulless and evil
leaves a bad taste on your tongue
This is my nature
This was my destiny from the
Beginning of everything
This is what I tell myself
Everything unfolding from a single point
We cannot perceive time as it truly is
Everything has already happened
Repeating again and again
This is what I tell myself
I have to
Because I have chosen fear over faith
We all have stories we must tell ourselves
And this is mine
Please think of the good times if you can
There were so many
I love you
X

vile boy
Do we live in a deterministic machine
Everything written in stone
Since the dawn of time
... Or do we have free will..
Etching our consciousness into the
Fabric of the universe
From one moment to the next
That is the question
But I am too weak
And too fearful
To believe in such majesty
I choose the easy way
foul boy
soulless and evil
leaves a bad taste on your tongue
This is my nature
This was my destiny from the
Beginning of everything
This is what I tell myself
Everything unfolding from a single point
We cannot perceive time as it truly is
Everything has already happened
Repeating again and again
This is what I tell myself
I have to
Because I have chosen fear over faith
We all have stories we must tell ourselves
And this is mine
Please think of the good times if you can
There were so many
Thank you
I love you all
X

>>15909746
Cont.

I started taking more and more drugs on a daily basis. Ketamine, valium, heroin, oxycodone, cannabis. My plan was to take more and more until I died. I was suicidal and the only justification I had for feeling this way was because I was evil. It was the most evil thing to do. I also started thinking that colleagues and friends were plotting and scheming against me behind my back. I thought my therapist was in on it.

Around this time I cut out all the booze and drugs and the thoughts got worse. I thought I was a psychopath. I had serial killers and death on my mind. Not that I ever dreamed of killing anyone or anything like that but the idea of evil drew me in. I couldn't help it. One night I started hearing voices from another room in the houseshare. I thought they were talking about me. I was receiving hidden messages by friends and family through my phone. They were telling me to connect with the spanish people downstairs but I had too much fear so I went for a late night walk to see what the universe had to offer outside.

This was a major fucking coincidence but after about 20mins I bumped into this homeless Rastafarian man who had been sleeping inside the porch of my house. We got talking and he was a nice man. He was called sunny but went by Raz. One thing led to another and we ended up buying crack and smoking it for two days while he stayed in my house. We were walking the streets while Raz told me about rastafarian philosophy and his time in prison in canada for being high up in a drug organisation (not sure how much of that was true). Raz came to represent the devil. He spoke in spoken verse rastafarian riddles about shadows and darkness and axes and blood. He said You're with me now. I had let him into my home.

>>15758305

I have willfully sinned
I have committed evil acts with evil intent
I revelled in it
For years
Causing suffering to all those around me
I felt Evil
And I said yes
And now
Now I am in a hell of my own construction
With no one to blame
But but my own free will
It is a toxic place to be and I need relief

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vile boy
Do we live in a deterministic machine
Everything written in stone
Since the dawn of time
... Or do we have free will..
Etching our consciousness into the
Fabric of the universe
From one moment to the next
That is the question
But I am too weak
And too fearful
To believe in such majesty
I choose the easy way
foul boy
soulless and evil
leaves a bad taste on your tongue
This is my nature
This was my destiny from the
Beginning of everything
This is what I tell myself
Everything unfolding from a single point
We cannot perceive time as it truly is
Everything has already happened
Repeating again and again
This is what I tell myself
I have to
Because I have chosen fear over faith
We all have stories we must tell ourselves
And this is mine
Please think of the good times if you can
There were so many
Thank you
I love you all

Sam
X