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I want to make another vow to God. I’ve made several vows before, including a permanent no-porn vow, and I just came off a 45 day no-4chan, no TikTok, no masturbation vow. I relapsed yesterday, the day after the vow ended. My willpower is weak, and this is why I use vows.

I want to make a more lasting vow, one that covers all my vices, and compels me to do good. I can vow to abstain completely, I can vow to commit a certain action, and I can make it more complex, so that I can only do X given that I have done Y in a certain timeframe. For example, I once vowed that for a week I could not use YouTube etc. unless I did a certain amount of physical exercises.

The difficult part is not regretting the conditions of the vow, such as by not making it specific enough to allow me to access good things through YouTube or whatever it is I’m trying to restrict. However I’m pretty sure I want to leave this place for good, as there is still porn everywhere and other toxic influences (my porn vow only covers porn sites, red boards, direct googling, etc.)

So I’m just asking for any wisdom in this, because there is so much to think about and it’s a big decision that will completely change my lifestyle for a while. I just want to get rid of all this regret in my life, and I feel too weak to do it without vows, and I’m not sure if I alone can make a good vow.

Any help would be appreciated. Thanks.