/lit/ - Literature

Today I got super h*rny, and I had been wanting to have phone-sex with a girl for some time (I have never done it before tho, also khhv), so I googled for phone-sex services. I found a site with many girls, I picked one, hit her up on whatsapp, she asked me to send her a token amount of money and she would verify over video call that she was indeed a girl, so I sent it, and she did, and she was a fair skinned, big ti*ted beauty. She asked me to send more money if I wanted to have video call with her for 20 minutes. I was almost high on horniness. I was imagining how I would roleplay with her as my elder sister and the thought alone was making me c*m in my underwear. So I send her 500 rupees as she asked, and she blocks me.

I feel like an absolute idiot, now that I have cum*ed to my senses. Also I am thinking I will sooner or later make an ass of myself in some big way, or get an STD fucking a hooker, or get taped masturbating in public or get arrested for molestation or something like that.

What are some books that are about sex-crazed maniacs who want to stop but can't, with whom I can relate? Something to hold kind of a mirror in front of me? I want something in the vein of pic related, or like "Devil's Elixirs" by E.T.A. Hoffmann, some book in which the lust-addled person dies a painful and humiliating death.

I could relate a bit too much with Ambrosio, although I am a khhv

>>16446736
It probably can't. I save myself by never playing such games in the first place that have a potential to be addictive. I have never played Dark Souls, COD, CS, PUBG, Minecraft or any other game that people swear by. I am pretty sure I would enjoy it for a week or two and then get hopelessly addicted and hate myself for not being in control and playing out of compulsion day after day. I have been addicted to EU4 as a teen, and also played it for the starting months of the quarantine.
I only mainly read books now, with occassional anime or movie or tv series. I feel much in control and I can stop whenever I want and do whatever I want. Also reading old books feels like transcending time.