/lit/ - Literature

>>18056932
>How?
You have to understand that I am childless, without a woman and essentially lack any responsibility towards others. I can only tell you how I feel towards death in this moment and right now I feel nothing. Those moments that give me great meaning barely make up for the anxiety that preoccupies my mind everyday. I live for a better future, I'm a very hopeful person who constantly dreams about a better future, that keeps me going. I'm not depressed. I believe depression, if I'm not mistaken, is the feeling of utter hopelessness. I'm not there yet in my life. I still retain immense hope, my will to procreate is very strong.

My biggest fears in life right now are that I will remain without a woman, and even if I manage to get a woman that I will remain childless and even then that something will happen to my children, or me, that affects the wellbeing of my children.

Dandelion Wine

Is the understanding and appreciation of beauty a manifestation of the soul? Who should I read to further understand this concept?

Anne Of Green Gables is already on my list

>>11877288
Not sure on book recommendations for that anon.
You are in a fight for your life right now and good for you for trying to look for answers. I promise you anon if you look hard enough you will find plenty of reasons to live. You cannot trust yourself when you have suicidal thoughts.
Keep trying and looking for answers anon, I believe in you.