/lit/ - Literature

>>15516538
Maps of Meaning

How do I stop myself from becoming super disinterested in sex the moment it's within my grasp?

I feel like a dog chasing cars, except I actually caught a few. Once I have it, I just don't know what to do. Not in a "where does penis go" literal kind of way, but my sex drive just flies right out the window. Like my mind pulls a hairpin turn and now I'm completely disinterested in actually having sex. Then a week later I'm kicking myself and back to being a horndog.

I've gone from "in the mood" to "get out of my face" at the snap of a finger for no reason. I swear every time I sound it out, it sounds like anxiety or something, but there's legitimately no component that feels anxious in my own experience. It even happens even when I'm loaded up on GHB and other anxiolytics.

I'm fucking going insane over it, holy shit. What's some literature that will illuminate the demon causing this, so I may hang ot by its ankles and break every bone in its body?

>>14509325
I am capable of giving it and receiving it, but I have yet to find a girl who I am compatible with.

I had one GF in my life and we were very incompatible and our relationship made me miserable. After the breakup I've felt like I have failed and am walking on a razors edge, feeling like I am doomed to fall into self-loathing. I just don't like submissive women or human stereotyped femininity at-fucking-all.

I Search for books which offer right wing solutions for the problem of capitalism. I don't believe that we can just turn back the clock or that hierarchies can be overcome. I Dont even really believe that just the power of the state can destroy capitalism. So i search for something which can overcome capitalism without needing a world revolution. Something possible on a national level. This solution needs to be compatible with one's own culture as the highest moral goal and it's keeping alive through dialectic evolution in which the historic totality is always present besides the modern. Any recommendations? Also general anti capitalist right wing works recommendations would be appreciated.