/lit/ - Literature

>Be me
>29 y/o dude
>Worried about balding
>Spend 2 years growing out my hair to make a wig out of it for when I'm old and bald
>Finally long enough to get cut
>My mom begs me to just tell the salon people that I'm donating it because she thinks me making a wig out of my own hair sounds super weird and she's embarrassed
>She's pretty insistent and I don't want to disappoint her
>Go in
>Tell them I'm getting it cut to donate it
>Lady doing the cutting keeps singing my praises and saying how noble I'm being
>Still want to keep it
>Then ANOTHER staff member comes in and tells me how I'll be making a sick kid really happy
>FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
>All done, go to check out
>Turns out the cut's FREE since I said I'm donating it
>Completely defeated
>Tip $15 for what should've been like a $7 tip
>Going to donate the hair now
Am I a shitty person? Like yeah I lied, but only because my mom asked me to because she was embarrassed. If I'm donating the hair in the end anyway then it should all be good, right?

Do I gotta read The Hobbit before Lord of the Rings?
I mean I get the gist of The Hobbit and think I may have read it when I was a kid.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BC35cQKHwzg

>>22923692
Eifmer shmefermurmin. Efleimen sthmefle paleili, smegudle blum honkforth di deur. Eefumaimen de brumf poddle di smur gurf. Imf di gu smreg gri furmfunegen mri di bli, smeg di berfudle.

I had some bizarre dream about needing to marry a half-snake woman (not even a lamia; like her face was wide at the mouth like a snake when she talked in an uncanny way and she had white scales over most of her body) whose father was some sort of super powerful demon dragon thing.

This is the second dream in the past few months where I've had to have a less-than-ideal marriage to appease a destructive kaiju in-law-to-be. Last one was literally just a sapient female bear whose mother was a massive bear demon who would wipe out the human race if I didn't, so this was a step up.

I have no fucking idea what's causing these dreams, since I'm a kissless virgin and A-okay with it. A subconscious fear of potentially losing my virginity and getting married someday, paired with kaiju media I consume? I don't know.

I just remembered the dream I had last night.
I had to marry a literal female bear that was the daughter of a giant demon mother bear, in order to make peace between human and bearkind and stop her mother from slaughtering humanity.
I'm not a furry, so I was adverse to it, but I ended up getting along with her and remembered I'm a vocel who doesn't need sex, and it ended up being strangely peaceful with a happy ending.

>>22748232
It makes me sick thinking about how much time in life I wasted by watching video essays and true crime docs on YouTube at normal speed instead of 1.25x.
I found out recently that there is basically no fucking reason not to watch at 1.25x speed. It is an improvement in every single fucking way; once you start using it, you realize how frustratingly slow people talk and how much time it takes up.
Like, I think of all the videos I didn't watch at 1.25x speed, and it genuinely makes me want to hurl. Like I get physically ill.

>>22610735
>>188768526
I had a weird dream about a secular Arab comedy duo. They started off reciting catchy jingles from American commercials off of memory and it was actually funny. Then a mattress was brought in, and one of them tried to crowd surf naked on top of it. He made it a little bit before the audience rolled him off and started beating him, and security had to intervene. Then I woke up.

Genuinely, I've had so many bad dreams and nightmares lately, that that's the most 'pleasant' dream I've had in recent memory.

>Mildly interested in a non-fiction book
>Physical is waaay too expensive
>No e-version
>Not available in any libraries
>Spend hours finding photographs of pages in forum reviews and ebay listings and splicing together screenshots from video reviews to frankenstein together more than 100 pages to 'read'
Is this autism?

>>21440709
I'm a lump of useless meat and bone.
I've managed to invest just enough time into a plethora of subjects to have wasted my life away without become an expert in any of them. I over exert and put too much effort into something but never acquire enough knowledge to do anything with it before I crash. Even my productivity is just energized futility.
I don't even have control of my mind. My subconscious produces endless nightmares whenever I try to sleep, to the point wherein trying to sleep is more tiring than laying slumped awake with my own thoughts. But even in my conscious thoughts I obsess over subjects I know I'm ultimately not interested in or will cause undue stress and distraction. The incessant curiosity can last for years before I effortfully research, procure nothing of value aside for sating my curiosity, and crash from exhaustion.
Even when I find a subject or field I genuinely enjoy I end up neglecting it, since to enjoy it I have to have a reasonable about of knowledge in regards to it, resulting in thoughts of it being drowned out by the incessant, noxiously loud curious thoughts regarding subjects I'm unfamiliar with but that I know will procure no long-term interest or value in any capacity.
I want to take my brain from my skull and throttle it until it sees reason.

I spent around 2 hours debating ~15 or so retards.
I countered all their arguments, they countered few of mine, none of them key to my argument. I provided sources, they accused me of arguing "dishonestly." They accused me of being a fed on a psyop, when they were the group of people that came out of nowhere all at once to aggressively push a narrative.
I effectively countered and disproved a gaggle of retards for multiple hours, but in the end none of them changed their minds, and when I left the thread they instead started infighting and going at each other's throats.
I felt good at first since I was so effectively defending my points, but honestly what's the point of effectively defending your points if it's in the face of such overwhelming wilful ignorance, projection, and deception? If those you're arguing refuse to acknowledge reality whatsoever, then any feeling of accomplishment starts to fade and a nihilistic feeling of futilely swimming against a retard current takes it's place.