/lit/ - Literature

>tfw South American (so you know I live in a shithole without Neetbucks)
>depressed so I haven't checked into my uni course all semester
>failed job interview, sabotaged second chance on purpose because depression
>not even /fit/ so can't join the FFL
>completely gave up on my dreams, again, live in a shithole and lack the skill

Fuck it, should I kill myself? I wanted public suicide by disemboweling but not even sure I can get that yet.

Hello, I need literature that will get my mindset ready for suicide, I already know about the void so please, no religion.

My life is worthless yet I'm unable to terminate it, I'm not yet ready.
What should I read? The current deadline would be some weeks after the release of the latest Matrix, a guilty pleasure.