/lit/ - Literature

>>18440661
I'm starting to believe that I am character on a Dostoyevsky novel.

>>18368157
I think I've lost that spark, that thing that kept me motivated and made strive towards greatness. In the last 6 years I've seen how, slowly, my will to achieve things vanished, and how I descended into a pit of mediocrity and hedonism.
I have always been an ambitious man, and I have always felt that I had the capicity to reach my goals, but I was never able to commit to anything for longer.
Now I do nothing but lie in my bed, browse this, make some shitpost for some quick dopamine fix, listen to music, read and daydream. I barely even eat, even if there's food, my diet consists mostly of caffeine.
I feel like an old whose dreams had been crushed a thousand times, but I'm still a young man.
I have planned so many times my future, but plans have a knack of just not coming true, and I time runs so fast...