/lit/ - Literature

>tfw none of Posidonius' books are extant

>>12534408
I just save reaction images, why are you so mean. I found it though.

>>11652798
In early college I wrote one of the most popular fanfictions in one of the largest fandoms of all time. People would write essays at one another arguing over the symbolism, over my possible influences, whether or not to consider it literature. I never finished it. Hard to write when it feels like the world is breathing down your neck, when a hobby becomes something more, something to live up to to in the eyes of thousands. I disappeared.

I started writing 'real' stuff later on: fiction (short stories), nonfiction, and poetry. My poetry has been published in highly respected international magazines. Moderately successful with non-fiction publication in regional mags. I once won a large sum of money for a fiction piece. Not once did I read a book of literature on my own time in college, and only half the time did I actually read the assigned material (I was a closet philosophy fag reading Heidegger and Wittgenstein instead).

I was personally mentored in writing by a now-famous literary author who once said I had "unearned talent", seemed almost offended at enjoying my writing after learning I rarely read (especially after giving me the big spiel about who they thought I must have been influenced by), though I won't go too far into it as they lurk this site. My writing professors encouraged me to "go do" highly competitive writing fellowships, as if my acceptance were a foregone conclusion. Professors had given me free 'ins' with various publishers for "when" I write a book. Even my fucking therapist drank my kool-aid, saying I was a magnet of greatness, even advising me to spend my money buying lottery tickets.

I have not written anything in years. On the final day of my final finals week, I was hospitalized for an OD. I collapsed under pressure after graduating and curled into a ball in the dark. Between then and now, I've had multiple psychotic breaks, was arrested for streaking naked on LSD through an apartment complex during an ego-death experience, and have suffered chronic nightmares and sleep paralysis (though that's probably more to do with the literally annual sexual assaults and incest flashbacks). Writing scares me. Withering into nothing in public for a third time would see me finally dissolve.

Reading Delillo and Murakami right now, torturing myself with the idea of writing again. Some sense of embarrassed obligation to it. Certain I've atrophied over the years, so I'm not sure how I'm going to get past the rust stage without falling apart.

>People say Heidegger is a phenomenonologist
>People say Heidegger is an existentialist

He can't be both, can he?

>>10015196
>I was in the year they tried peer evaluations

>>7246130
>edgy pretentious jazz artist like john zorn
>i'd probably go w witty if i had to choose the most jazzcore philosopher
wtf dude, this just proves you know nothing about both music and philosophy