/lit/ - Literature

I wish I'd been born a cute Japanese girl. Not in the sense that I want to become a tranny and start dressing like that. Just wish that was how it had happened.

Though I suppose if I had been born a cute Japanese girl, I wouldn't even know that I had, because I just would be me. You know? I wouldn't know that I could have been a 26 balding white dude. So maybe I am a cute Japanese girl, somewhere. Does t

hat make any sense?

Rough couple of months. Tell myself things will get better in order to get by, but at this stage its very hard to see how they could get better. But I have to tell myself they will, otherwise I won't be able to function.

summa summa summa yah yah yah had a lot of bad luck recently i guess, just one bad thing after another. but i've been autopiloting that shit - total blank mode, no short term memory. wonder if it'll come down on me at some point later. god i'm bored. don't want to sleep but nothing interests me enough to keep me awake. I don't have the energy to read. I have nothing interesting to say. I guess i'll post a passage I like:

>Eileen had long thin cool white hands too because she was a girl. They were like ivory; only soft. That was the meaning of Tower of Ivory but protestants could not understand it and made fun of it. One day he had stood beside her looking into the hotel grounds. A waiter was running up a trail of bunting on the flagstaff and a fox terrier was scampering to and fro on the sunny lawn. She had put her hand into his pocket where his hand was and he had felt how cool and thin and soft her hand was. She had said that pockets were funny things to have: and then all of a sudden she had broken away and had run laughing down the sloping curve of the path. Her fair hair had streamed out behind her like gold in the sun. Tower of Ivory. House of Gold. By thinking of things you could understand them.

Yo weebs - any good academic texts on Japanese culture/subcultures? perhaps something with a psychoanalytic or cultural studies bent? I want to know what it is that makes anime and japanese school girls so hypnotically alluring.