/lit/ - Literature

I would give it all to be tall and handsome. I can spend all the time I want in reading books and achuiring knowledge, engaging in ideas, it wont change anything. Plato was right in saying that philosiphy is preparation for death, what else can I do when the good side of life is closed to me. Books and ideas are only a temporary diversion. When I close my eyes and open them again I'm still here, in this reality with everyone else.

It's such a baffling and startling realization I've spent the last decade never doing anything I wanted. And it's not like I was working or sacrificing for the future, I have nothing to show for it at all except bad health and worse debt. It's bizarre, to hold this fact in your hands and look straight at it. Is such a thing possible? I guess this is what's meant when people talk about self destructive behavior. All that Adam Smith and Marx definitely damaged my brain when I was younger, people act in their interests? Am I not a person? Maybe not...

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my vision is really bad because i have blue eyes