/lit/ - Literature

>>17015936
I fully "got it" this year. But I'm autistic and since I was fapping up to that point, my OCD wanted me to keep jerking it to porn until the year ends. Honestly, I was never much of a sexual person. I liked jerking off to porn when I discovered it, and I had my fantasies, but I never had a crush for example. I found that rather naive. I got to caring about
>tfw no gf
in... the last year or two. I went through a rather lengthy period of hopelessnes and self-pity until it abruptly came to an end as if it had never occured. Don't get me wrong, my life is still in tatters, but I don't much care anymore. Honestly, I am easily disgusted and tend to oscillate between distant and an open book. Two extremes that still keep me firmly rigid when it comes to sexual relations. I look inwards and find that I am more concerned with perfect fantasies and ideals rather than the reality of a human relationship, which is why I'm willing to forego it until something changes or the need for it arises.
>>17015969
Well yes, but it's not just them pushing blacked. It's something more insidous. There's no actual proof but the patterns speak for themselves. In all of my years of coomery I never saw something like that. For a while, as I said, I kept digging. I'd click on the vids, go on a wild goose chase and end up doing a full circle as I'd come back to the same old vids posted by different channels. Used to be you could search a pornstar or a video and not see a single BMWF vid. Not anymore. They're always there, the usual suspects, present in the suggestions. I tried different sites. Different search engines. I went there with Tor and changed cunts and identities each time. The same algorithms still worked. Before Tumblr took down their porn I found some blogs there with such themes. Their gifs and vids were the same as the ones on /gif/. Entire blogs dedicated to
>ayo yo daughter be chocking on black dick muffaga
In contrast with the "amateur" vids of fit teens, the actual subreddits of coalburners were full of whales and plastic middle aged trash. This thing went deep and the more I looked the weirder it became. Especially when you get into the boorus and various r34 sites. But there's no end. They'll keep on coming. And I'm tired of going for a wank only to see /gif/ full, pornhub full of niggerdick, then spend half an hour analyzing cuck porn and crossreferencing it between the sites and instagram accounts. There's no point to it. There's no concrete evidence, just correlations. But I know it. There's something rotten, a set-up. All we can do is hope that not a lot of people fall into their trap. But there is something going on, this isn't just a fetish that's somehow spiked. It's an operation.