/lit/ - Literature

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I talked to Jesus while reading something on pluralism by Norman Malcolm I think. It might have been Merton though. He just sort of flew out from nowhere into my psyche and we had this vividly imagined conversation that I wasn't thinking about at all beforehand. Felt him float around the library. Dunno if it was real or not, but that's kind of the point i guess.

Had some others where I thought I died and my soul went to hell while tethered to my body when I was close to falling asleep but kind of sleep deprived from studying all night and having work that day.

Lots of mystical stuff from acid

Synchronicity almost every day

Every now and then a death demon succubus will have a conversation in my head. There's been lots of other women I guess too that are gone now. Pure fantasy, I can't tell if I'm having the conversation but then again, I gave up the "I" as being some one solid thing because I stopped treating the psyche as epiphenomenal. There's a lot I found you can do in the world of mental masturbation when you have so much mental uncertainty and societal conditioning mucking up your head.

I tried talking to God the Father a few times. Connection was not that strong. Did a ritual for the triple Goddess once, received at least one sign that spooked me good. Very old deity that one.

There's been a plethora of manic laughing, screeches, and abyssal noises coming from who knows where too. Usually occurs before sleep. I've had to record the bedroom several times to make sure sounds were real or imagined. Talking to the death succubus to protect me from them has had some success. She's like the spokesperson for Death itself.

I will see the Mysterium to it's end.