/lit/ - Literature

>>15439610
why live? Why fucking live? I am a 20 year old khv, on meds for OCD and psychiatrist said i had sex obsession (obsessed with the concept of sex despite never having it) and thus i revolve my daily life and conversations around the subject of sex (even when i did nofap, i constantly thought of marriage and afraid of being raped by a girl and sent to hell). Imagine that everything you fucking say is creepy. I can't help it. I lost 2 friendships with girls, one whom i played games with and another whom i talked for 3 hours with over skype on webcam two days in a row. That was when i bought a rope.

Fuck this life. Fuck this curse. I was robbed of a youth. I have been deprived of physical and emotional connections. Imagine being surrounded by people with legs and arms and gloating about it, but then telling you, when you inevitably complain about it, that you will eventually grow some - and to give it time.