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skull in a jar edition

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YES!! Finally! They understand! THAT'S WHAT YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO DO!! Today, niggers weren't useless. Biggest white pill this week so far.

>>17500120
Yes but i'm paralyzed by fear and possible stress. I just dont have any faith in me regarding dealing with real life situations.
>>17500125
All my friends and brother are miles ahead of me regarding life (have job, their own place, LTR's, marriage and even kids) and i'm just being complete parasite to my parents. But like i've mentioned above i just want to move out and stay hidden from world at the same time. New changes are too terrifying for me, i mean dealing with new work colleagues, flatmates and being confined in monotonous routine just complete sucks out even the little drops of resolve and hope. Ofcourse there's a "fools pride" which doesnt let me just take the minimal wage jobs as it would like a stamp on forehead that i'm a complete loser and that's the most i can do. Unironically i feel like trying anything without having 100% guarantee is complete time waste when i'm doing nothing which practically me wasting my life away. I try to read books to find the sentence or passage which could inspire me that much so i could muster up the courage and just go out to world but even after reading one (Courage to be Disliked) i theoretically understand that to implement those mentioned things would do great benefit for me but i just put those thoughts near me. However i just cant do the final leap. I just cant. Sorry for ranting.

Im struggling to internalize the fact that only i carry responsibility for my life. I only know this on theoretical level but nothing deeper. Im still ignorant of this basic knowledge.