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>>22502514
I am so freaking tired of the constant hell that is my life,they say i dont have to suffer like this but they are the ones who made my life what it is.
Laughing in my face while they psychologically torture me and also betray me in the worst possible way but i should just forgive.
They talk about forgiveness while none of them had to endure a fraction of what ive been through and on top of that they give me false hope only to crush them,at this point i see no other way out but suicide only it is what they want me to do and i dont want them to rejoice in my death.
If even God wont help then what should i do...he put me through so much sorrows and i should thank him for my unbearable existence while the people who tortured me get what they want while also taking from me.
Im so tired and it probably wouldnt be so bad that i kill myself because otherwise i feel like im gonna lash out on anyone under the weight of this anger growing in me.
So God please help me before satan wins me over.