/lit/ - Literature

>Requests for my services came so frequently that I scarcely had time to catch my breath. A sickly body like mine wasn't up to such frantic activity. ... I felt secretly like telling the group, "This isn't my business. Why don't you get a regular party man to do it?" Unable to suppress such reactions of annoyance, I escaped. I escaped, but it gave me no pleasure: I decided to kill myself.
It's crazy how similar Yozo's psychology is to mine, especially on a second read. Obviously I'm a neetcel, but every page is relatable on a mental basis. I've literally attempted suicide simply because I didn't want to refuse someone's social request (like going to church) and couldn't find any way to resolve my feelings except to die. In Yozo's case, shortly afterwards he develops a new social obligation to the woman he sends to buy him pills for his suicide, and ends up not killing himself immediately as planned. I have done similar too, and in a sense I don't do something dreadful now because it would bring trouble to my family. Still, I wish I could escape even from my family.

What is the psychology behind Yozo and the alienated man archetype? The Underground man is also freakily similar, though a different and more bitter side of the coin.