/lit/ - Literature

I want to be an atheist, be at home with myself, but so many things are left in darkness and the world just is not enough for me, since it sucks, bad people seem to have a lot more fun than good people, and even sleep the good can't get because it's so loud outside, a sort of final justice or whatever is needed, but this leads me back to God, whom I just can't accept, what do I do now? Am I forever fated to remain in this god forsaken god searching state? Apparently the word God comes from from ghut meaning "that which answers prayers" or "that which attends the sacrifice" what a joke...