/lit/ - Literature

Something interesting (and frustrating) happens to me whenever I try to remember something I have suddenly forgotten in the moment. This happens when I attempt to find the forgotten memory through tracing through my thoughts deeply, or by the process of association.

When attempting to travel through thought and find the memory, the very impression and fact that I have forgotten the memory tends to interfere in the process, and creates another mental substitute memory which then becomes another obstacle I have to deviate from or derive associations from in order to find the path to the memory, and by then, the paths of association are corrupted with a distorted idea, and ultimately I will not be able to find my way to the real memory I was originally intending to find.

This is a mouthful. Hopefully someone understands. It is really strange and I have noticed it much as of late. It as if though the very process (of association or finding the memory) becomes an obstacle memory itself. Strange.