/lit/ - Literature

I’m actually paralyzed by how lazy and dumb I am. Most of yesterday was spent in bed, staring at the ceiling. I’ve spent my entire life wanting to be creative though i haven’t had any creative drive since highschool. I have nothing but time and money now and even after swapping drink and dank with nicotine and caffeine, I cannot bring myself to put any effort towards anything. I’ve never been an active reader so literature is probably a pretentious delusion. Too dumb for music and uninterested in the gadgetry collecting that and digital art would require. Game design has the same gearfag issue but with the added burden of it being fucking videogames. I barely play them without cheating and don’t care about them enough to make any serious formal contributions. The idea of toiling away at a one man toy factory to build some incidental container for an uncultivated worldview. If I wanted to be a propagandist, I’d just make YouTube videos.