/lit/ - Literature

>>10395342
The problem is that I'd rather feel nihilistic than work. No job has been fulfilling and I've always wanted to just do nothing. But now that I'm actually not doing anything by living a life of leisure, I'm dead. So far, I am living in an Epicureanistic way, living small and without much pleasure, only rewarding myself from time to time (with steak and pizza once a week, not cheese) but I don't feel it's enough.
I'm not interested in travelling the world. I've read enough of philosophy to understand existence. I am misanthropic and don't care for sex or other people. Becoming rich has just left me with the realization that I am nothing.

I just want to be happy but nothing makes me happy anymore.