/lit/ - Literature

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"It’s because I don’t know that I am so profoundly at odds with myself. It because I don’t know that I consistently find myself spending extended amounts of time doing something that will not benefit me further than immediate gratification. I believe this is the reason people fall to drugs. Develop addictions. Become basely animalistic and commit suicide.
It is what leads me to choosing to do unimportant things with my finite time instead of working on my degree, my family, my dreams. It is why I am writing this text.

I myself have not come up with an answer for this problem, but my father gave me some advice which lifts my unease.
He said that it is alright to not understand or know where I am, or where I am going. A lack of knowledge should not discourage you from pursuing it. However, chances stand that I may come to a conclusion later in my life. I may reach a higher perspective on life, and will be able to make a personal and definite decision in which I have full confidence. It is necessary, however, that I continue my hard work in order to make that fate possible. I will not reach any conclusion if I lay down and die like a dog. However the chance stands that I may reach a conclusion if I pursue it.

It seems I require to at least give myself a chance.

So that is what I will do. I will continue to pursue knowledge and ponder these fundamental questions, until I die. If I never reach a conclusion, so be it. But at least I tried, and I used my time in a way which gave me the best chance at enlightenment.
If I die with doubt in my heart, let it be not because I did not look, but because I did not find"

3/3 I hope this helped you as much as it helped me, brother.