/lit/ - Literature

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I can't get abs no matter how hard I'm trying

>>7949755

>>7843007
fuck that image hits home. Been getting succ under the table the past few weekends, almost identical

>>7398504
you're my clone. or i'm your clone.
>left highschool at 16 due to anxiety depression health issues blah blah
>did correspondence work from home
>manage to scrape through into uni at 19, no possibility of doing anything other than humanities (not like i could pull STEM off if i wanted to anyway)
>second thoughts about the whole thing, only really going to buy myself time and make my mother proud as it is her life long wish kind of thing and she's paying for most of it
>writing major
i'm also obsessive over my hobbies of writing and making music

seeing as our lives are so similar, i'll assume it's down to similarity in character and give my thoughts.

i think people like you and me really should not worry about employability; even 'normal' people find working typical jobs depressing, let alone people with social anxiety issues (which are not going to help at all for getting a job in the first place) and people who want to create meaning through their work. i'm hedging my bets on self employment. i don't know if that's smart, i think it probably isn't, but for me it's the only option that won't lead to self loathing.

passion is the REAL, the genuine motivator - not just for us, but for everyone. however, the fact that we've already become aware of that and now cling to our passions ('hobbies') will make working outside of those fields of interest all the more soul sucking.

because you are concerned about this 'meaning' i think that sticking with your current major, or maybe switching to creative writing, is the answer - unless you truly think you need this 'employability' and will be able to find meaning in 'writing' C# code or spreadsheets. however, i don't know your financial situation, mine is quite lucky. ultimately it is a portfolio that will help you to make a living writing books or music, and if you do not think university is paying off in that regard you may want to consider taking a dayjob - but don't give up on your passions, now that you've been lucky enough to actually FIND them.

i think that's OP's problem and those with similar stories. did they focus on their PASSION, or their 'interest'?:::

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iKHTawgyKWQ