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>>6907287
Similar experience, OP.

>be in intro course
>small class size
>about half a dozen people
>be a few years older than classmates
>about the same age as the instructor
>grad student
>do well in the class initially
>make favorable first impression
>some of the kids and I chat some
>talk with instructor now and again
>cute girl sits next to me
>the tension is almost too much
>go almost the entire semester without saying a word to one another
>do talk some near the end of the semester
>doubt I was forward enough and she took that as lack of interest
>not sure
>during beginning, maybe middle, of the semester, instructor mentions something about wishing we--the class--could talk over drinks, and something else about the campus bar
>she seemed, then, to have eyes for me
>none of classmates of age
>stay silent, paralyzed with anxieties, while it passes over
Not directly related but...
>quit attending class regularly after a while
>grades plummeted
>when I went to class, I'd be a blowhard, say things, not because they were relevant, but to show myself as knowledgeable, or otherwise to derail the lectures and discussions.
>pretty sure she and classmates abhorred me by the end of the semester