/lit/ - Literature

Desperately need life affirming books.
>stuck in a mental rut
>made stupid and rash choice
>afraid to unmake it because of others people judgement of me
>regrets of wasted youth haunt me nightly
>afraid to have dreams because I feel I'm incapable of even thinking of realizing them
>loneliness eating it's way out from the inside
I'm 23, soon to be 24. I'm still rather young. I need something that will make me want to grab life by the balls, or just grow a pair of my own.

>live in a country that is an economic hell
>have to take STEM in uni to have enough money to live comfortably
>took computer science because of >muh big paycheck
>every lecture is painfully boring
>too much of a brainlet to even pass the introCS exam
books about living in an inescapable hell or about slaving away your whole life for a paycheck?