/lit/ - Literature

how the fuck do I know if somebody loves (can be platonic) me or just tolerates me?
and even worse, how do I know if their love is based off of an inaccurate image of who I am? I tend to be a bit reserved and I think sometimes when I reveal more of myself to people they get confused and scared off, but I don't want to build a relationship on a fiction of who I am
or am I just a worthless, scary person? In which case I should change myself
also unrelated but why are monarchies out of vogue? Feels like we should maybe try that again, democracy was a mistake