/lit/ - Literature

I fucked up, I let my emotions get the best of me
On the one hand, I hate that I screwed up
On the other hand, I'm glad to know I can still feel something
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c6IxaI1_iYE

>I can’t feel vibes or ‘feelings’ about things anymore. Like before I’d play a game and there’d be a vibe or something to it. Same with just going different places I feel nothing now everything feels exactly the same no matter what
Do any of you guys relate to this?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UF18bkfrZUE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BfS_XqRgb3M

>>17177405
I realize there is no good answer which is what frustrates me. There isn't a clear issue with the work, it's just that sense of "feeling real" is not there, but when I think about it, the beauty of fiction isn't there for me either, nor is there beauty in poetry, and so on, etc. My sense of reality feels like it's disintegrating because all these anchors I used to tie myself to the world with have disappeared. Even if reading is supposed to be productive in itself, when your nature is so far removed from it, how could you become a better person by devoting yourself to it?

Apologies for disguising what turned out to be a blogpost in a premise stated around philosophy. I didn't reflect long enough at first to realize that is what it is. No one should have to live like this, man

I've been posting in these threads for years.
I need real friends.

I started a 400 page theoretical work and may have bit off more than I can chew