/lit/ - Literature

>>19331186
Anon with a million projects here. I am losing my God damn mind and I don't know what to do.
My NEET days have been over for the last 2 months since I started going to school again. My location is filled with insufferable zoomerfaggots that speak like they have mush-mouthed impediments. Everyone, normal-looking or not, is talking about race and sex and class and blah blah bullshit as if it's going out of style. I fucking despite it. It doesn't help that I'm involved in a few clubs and intensive courses, meaning I have to see all of these worms day in and day out. I could lie and say I find solace in my part-time job, but that usually only happens when I have to pay for groceries. God, I'm hungry enough to eat a house right now.
I've been falling behind in everything. All of the projects that I want to do (pic related) and my classes aren't going as well as they should be. Being here, at school, has drained me to the point where I'm getting 9 hours of sleep out of depression alone. Today, though, a fire burned in my heart as I realized how futile things are going to become if I don't do what I want to do. And I want to create, consume, create, etc. as a one-man army under my real name so I am known, and false anonymities so I am not. Just a whole smattering of universes where anyone won't know it's me--while balancing media consumption, an ever-dwindling social life, failing health, and classes I couldn't give less of a shit about anymore.
My current major project is a reflective piece I got an idea for over the summer. I guess now would be the time to write it. I'm also going to start teaching myself how to make music and draw on a computer so I can create something beyond my current limited capacities. The only way I can become a one-man army is to train for it. God, I am so tired. But I've thrown my whole self into this for far too long, and there's no way I'm willing to let myself go so easily.