/lit/ - Literature

>>12899764

>>12901003
Hahaha, me too :P

>>12867459
>seeing shit in the walls because lack of sleep hehe.
Had a roommate with this exact issue, could not sleep he just ended up blacking out after sprawling for hours on the bed, his peak hours were 9-1am prob like you anon. The issue is he never really slept the lack of sleep made him have horrible dreams and he'd tell me about figures like the pic you posted that he'd see, pretty fucked up if you ask me. He was always half-awake half-asleep, really good guy the only bestfriend i've ever had, anyways he went into psychosis after months of this, dude was extremely talented too he wrote the best prose i've ever seen from someone my age. Dude went to a sanatorium far off in the woods of my state, he left his dream journal and a few other notes, and let me tell you his dream journal is filled with the most nightmarish shit ever.
I'll give you a few excerpts
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uncle
uncle
uncle
uncle
uncle
fuck hes dead
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drill holes in that girls eyes dont fall asleep;everyone is on pills dont fall asleep
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is everyone without hanging out with me?
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napkins shoved up her cunt instead of a tampon
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He posted on here all the time, im sure one these excerpts were posted here b4 he was obsessed with his dreams although I never knew they were this.. strange? Anyways get sleep anon otherwise you will go insane.

>>12865763
I'm too much of a beta to put her and myself in a position like that, I also have a thing where I mumble alot when I get nervous,emotional, or just talk too fast so I woudve fumbled over my words with a bit before ever being able to confess something like this.

>>12764779
I have really good relationship with my professor and honestly I thought and still think what Moldbug (his ebooks are insanely good) and Land have to say are ground breaking philosophies I may have fit the crazy lunatic category when I insisted some of my friends to read a few articles to just trial it I even went to the extent to sending blog links to my phil. group chat consisting of a few friends in the class, its like everyone's blue pilled and wants to stay that way

>>12658870
My dad is chad hes read all of the Patrician wor...... my dad left me as a kid and has barely been in my life since.

>>12656491
I had a terrible fucking high-school experience emotional scars type of shit.

Was a geek freshman year going to the library,getting good grades,got bullied for being so straight-edged, was well known just friendly with everyone was the king of the chess club :).
Sophomore year met with the wrong people ended up being the typical juvenile scumbag failing all classes smoking weed everyday, but nothing really bad. First girl I start talking to is nice funny, found out she has a boyfriend and she dumped him a month talking to me as friends. Boyfriend thinks I was talking shit or something, beats my ass infront of everyone can't defend myself cause dontknowhowtofight..... There is a video and everything. End up getting kicked out of school because shit grades even though good classes and the other guy gets off scot free with a suspension because the principal thinks what he did to me was justified. So, I had to go to school 40 miles away from everyone I knew my then old friends think Im some juvenile scum fuck and I could not even talk to people anymore because of crippling anxiety I inherited(It also gave me massive acne because of stress and acne in turn gave me more stress).So nobody invited me anywhere or attempted to talk to me unless i've talked to them before. Did not have any close friends for the rest of the 2.5 years of high-school. At least no one bothered me anymore when I read.

tl;dr Tried to be chad juvenile in HS got my ass beat in front everybody; on video. Ended up moving to school in another county, made no friends for the rest of high-school.

If only I had not gone to a shitty highschool where being a dumb-ass is cool and prompted me to be one through immense pressure