/lit/ - Literature

>>20821294
Read the most depressive shit there is out there:

Every Cradle is a Grave
On the Height of Despair
Journey to the End of the Night
The Piano Teacher
The Loser (by Bernhard)
The Tartar Steppe
Kokoro
A Posthumous Confession
The Last Messaiah essay
Suicide and Attempted Suicide
The Denial of Death
Poetry of Mihail Eminescu, Emily Bronte, Edward Young and Baudalaire.

That should disconnect you from the idea that life can be good, happy and that Yaldabaoth created this world for us to enjoy :^)

At this stage you should be full of despair and hopelesness. But that's good (look up the concept of Postive Desintegration) - it's a very strong ground for what you will chose, since now you have three choices really:

a) Kill yourself.

b) Decide that you enjoy the aesthetics of hoeplesness and despair and delve into them entirerly - read books like what I've given, watch movies like them and listen to music like them. Since you write a book, it will do wonder to your art. (Read also Bataille's The Inner Expirience and Literature and Evil in that case)

c) Read de Sade's Justine, Eugénie de Franval, and Juliette. Different works will also do the trick, which is to make you a misanthrope who knows how to have fun and who will die regretting nothing.

You can connect the choice b) with choice c) - this is what I have done. It should mold you into a very interesting persona that will enjoy life in a very subjective and painful yet pleasureable way. It'll probably help you to find a very special girl with whom life won't be that much of a chore (speaking from expierience)

Also, small things but very important - exercise daily and eat well. That shit really does help.

Cheat this failed reality Anon, and live in a way that you enjoy (or not and off yourself - it's entirerly your choice) Don't compare yourself to NPC's which entire personality consists of top Netflix serieses and Spotify songs.

>>18882742
>I wish my mentality were as exciting and free-spirited as some on display here. I can't find a fantasy satisfying unless it's:
>a) Plausible.
>b) Earned through my own efforts.
you're not alone.
I once watched a video explaining in-depth why MGS4 was a mistake, and one of the last things said in the video was, "if you wrote a story about yourself, wouldn't you want it to have a happy ending?"
first thing I thought of, and the only answer I've had for that question since, has been "do I deserve one"