/lit/ - Literature

The last time I remember myself going out of the house and meeting people constantly was 2007 to 2009, then 2015 to 2017.
I hate going out not because I dislike people in particular like this friend >>18951562, but because I hate both my personality and especially my looks, and I feel awkward people seeing me.
I honestly feel like I ought to have thrown myself off the top of a building, but then again I'm afraid of repercussions to this. I even believe Socrate's opinion in Phaedo iirc, that death should be welcomed when it comes naturally because it may assist one in discovering truth, but not if he kills himself/

How important would you say male height is for women?
My friend introduced me to this cute girl yesterday and we had a good time drinking and talking, and at one point I was about to get up to get more drinks and I thought:
''now I'll stand up and she'll see I'm barely 5'7 and the good impression I made will have been for nothing"
Do you think manletism can be a deal breaker for some women?

Any books for or about people who don't like themselves at all or can't reconcile with their image and person?