/lit/ - Literature

>>19351078
I had a marijuana-induced psychotic fit and hallucinated that I had weird intersex genitals. I saw and felt that my once normal cock and balls were a mangled mess. I began recontextualizing my memories to fit with my newfound belief that I had these botched nuts and a clit-like cock. For example I was circumcised when I was ~4 years old and convinced myself that it was actually an intersex genital surgery. I got so freaked out that I called my mom. My dad heard too. I was absolutely panicked and deranged. A confluence of working out (legs), toking a few times, busting a giant nut, and having a long hot shower resulted in my balls sucking into my body and my cock temporarily shrinking. I began to hallucinate sounds as well, particularly the sound of a bowl being placed onto the counter repeatedly. I began writing in my journal in order to keep a record of what I was experiencing. It was all fucked up and would randomly be in all caps or would be written on only one side of the page. This is completely out of character for me and I fear that I've ruined my parents' opinion of me. Did I mention that I'm currently living with them after graduating during COVID?

>>17134505
i didnt know mark fischer killed himself...

>Fisher argued that "the pandemic of mental anguish that afflicts our time cannot be properly understood, or healed, if viewed as a private problem suffered by damaged individuals."

>Having exhausted the possibilities of sexual pleasure, it was reasonable that individuals, liberated from the constraints of ordinary morality, should turn their attentions to the wider pleasures of cruelty.

>The tradition of all dead generations weighs like a nightmare on the brains of the living. And just as they seem to be occupied with revolutionizing themselves and things, creating something that did not exist before, precisely in such epochs of revolutionary crisis they anxiously conjure up the spirits of the past to their service, borrowing from them names, battle slogans, and costumes in order to present this new scene in world history in time-honored disguise and borrowed language.

Is semiotics a good field for a schizo?
What are some introductory books?