/lit/ - Literature

>After the death of his wife Helen, C.S. Lewis wrote reflections which were collected into A Grief Observed.
>"If [Helen]. 'is not,' then she never was. I mistook a cloud of atoms for a person. There aren't, and never were, any people. Death only reveals the vacuity that was always there. What we call the living are simply those who have not yet been unmasked. All equally bankrupt, but some not yet declared."

>Read all of Plato's dialogues
>Still don't understand what he means by 'Nous'.
help pls

I’ve completely given up and can’t function. I don’t even know where to start and it’s been over a year like this. I think I’ll never know where to start. This scares me.

Recommend books on how to overcome extreme self hate. Not just self help, I'm sure theres some novels out there that deal with this too, but anything is welcome. I'm turning into a depressed unlikeable incel and I need to stop it before it's too late

Reality is sobering.

>>20895862
>everything's irreversible in the life of individual.

I don't have an answer to that OP, I'm sorry,
but I want to use this thread to ask how can I stop this fate from befalling me? I'm a 21 year old virgin, I've only had a few conversations with girls. I'm an extreme social outcast and shut in. My friends from high school have all forgotten about me, but I suppose I should be grateful I had friends in high school. Don't bother trying to teach me the blackpill, I know it well and have made some effort at lookmaxxing - hopefully it can pay off. The issue is that I have no idea where to meet girls and how to be romantic and sexual. I can't get the notion that I am a repulsive creature that is incapable of being someone's object of desire or affection out of my head. My parents didn't really care for me so I have no accurate basis for how to express love. My conversational skills are lacking as well, I can't even build a platonic relationship. Is it over for me? I just can't imagine myself having a girlfriend. For some reason I've always felt that I was destined to die alone as a virgin. I've been aware of my status since childhood. I don't know if this mindset can, or even should, be changed. I don't think there was ever any hope for me.

im blackpilled af fr fr

>"I hate it, is it only going to get worse?"
>"Probably."
>"What should I do then, how do I move on? Do I really deserve this? I feel like I have tried my best, but I guess I just gave up at some point.”
>"Does it mean you have lost all hope?"
>"I guess you could say that. I’m just so jealous of others getting to live a normal life.”
>"What do you think a normal life is?"
>"I don’t know…I guess being able to enjoy everyday life without any burdens.”
>”If thats the case, then there is no such thing as a normal life.”
>”What do you mean?”
>”When was the last time you remember being happy, or more precisely, when was the last time you felt your life was normal?”
>”I don’t think I have ever been happy.”
>”Well… If you could travel back in time by a year, would you do it? Was your life more ‘normal’ back then?”
>”Of course it was more normal, there were less burdens back then.”
>”But you weren’t happy back then, were you”?
>”I wasn’t, but it was better than it is now”
>”So then, one year from now, it will be worse than it is right now. Don’t you think you should cherish your current life knowing that it will only get worse?”
>”Do you think I should be happy right now because it will only get worse? This is meaningless. I have already accepted that things won’t get better. I gave up, I lost all hope, it is pointless to fight, I have tried. There is no reason for me to be happy.”
>”If you have accepted this, then there is no reason for you to be unhappy”
>”Accepting this fucking stagnation is making me even more unhappy.”
>”Shouldn’t you continue trying then and fight against it? You just admitted that accepting this stagnation is making you even more unhappy.”
>”But I have tried my best, I really have. I just want a normal life.”
>”Like I said, there is no such thing. Everyone has their own burdens and problems. Some keep themselves busy by fighting so they have no time to be sad, others accept it and try to move on, hoping it will get better. To some, there is meaning in hardships, and try to justify it by thinking that there is a reason for it. But you have accepted stagnation by giving up.”
>”I tried my best.”
>”Only you know what you can do. However, If you look back to this moment after a year, I hope you have made a decision which you will not regret.”

>Jesus wept.

am a fucking idiot and bought the standard abridged version of The Count of Monte Cristo. it looked good and had absolutely nothing mentioning it was cut up to hell. it is still worth reading or should i neck myself?

I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate myself, i hate humans in general, i hate existence, i hate art. Wtf do i do? Help

I just can't keep convincing myself there's an entity who loves me and wants the best for me when my life is in utter ruin. How can suffering be explained away by "God is testing you?" How can all of this be part of some greater plan? Someone please give me some perspective here. Because 2 weeks ago I went for a midnight drive with my pistol and the only thing that kept me from pulling the trigger was the fear of what's beyond. But I can't go on like this.

Sorry if this is too "if God real why bad thing happen" but I'm just desperately trying to understand here. And I suppose we'll never have full understanding of the divine but man I'm dying out here.

I'm asking /lit/ because when I talk about this with atheist friends they go full r*ddit mode on me and when I talk to Christian friends they give me nice answers and ignore the hard questions.

>>20076183
>breeding
i'm an anti-natalist, whitey
>>20076186
wtf
you're not a marxist if you voted for trump bruh

When quoting historians and other writers in a history essay, should you write "wrote" for deceased historians and "writes" for those who are still alive?

E.g.,

>"John Smith wrote that "such and such" was the case. [John Smith, 1864]"

>"Mary Sue writes that "such and such" was the case. [Mary Sue, 2017]

Any 30+ year old losers here?

What books have helped you deal with your situation in life at this age?

I'm struggling bros.

>medieval peasants worked 150 days per year

Any books about this issue?

I was raised to believe the medieval period was full of dirty peasants coughing and trudging around muddy fields before dying in their late 20s.

>>17656013
is the action to revolt enough...?

My argumentative writing is so fucking dogshit guys. I started practicing with a GRE book and whenever I compare my work to top rated ones I want to cry. I must have undiagnosed autism or some other mental defect.

>>17189995
>you've made a significant effort in getting one
I have dated three girls in my life with whom I had a genuine connection with and who were not too repulsed by my appearance. However, they all broke it off due to my small, especially in regards to girth, penis because they could barely feel anything even though we tried to work it out with foreplay, positions and angles. The last one told me to never pursue a relationship ever again because my pencildick will never do anything, not even for a 12 year old. (she was a very nice girl but the sexual frustration turned her into a monster)

i've been incredibly jaded lately. i've never been this jaded since i was self harming and tried to kill myself years ago. i've become a coomer, and incel of sorts, and i'm tired of feeling the need of distracting myself with video games that are not even the mainstream (god forbid), hentai, porn and talking to strangers online that i share some common past time with.
i feel the need to connect with people but i always feel like i fail at it because i'm not speaking my mind for real, or because i can't say how i feel because we live in a society. or even because i feel like everyone is a fucking douchebag that don't even longer care for how people feel. maybe it's because i dislike myself so much that i seek in the outside what i can't provide to myself.
i noticed i'm curious about the idea of being "saved" somehow by religion, of "repenting"... but i'm pretty sure that's just not going to happen. i don't trust the church, because i think they're massive hypocrites and because i was rape by a monk when i was a child. i even fantasied about confesing in the same church i was raped.
anon, what the fuck should i read from the torah, the bible or the philosophers? i feel like i'm living in constant sin and there's nothing from modernity that will save me from myself, just only make it worse. i hate myself and my inhability to just live a healthier life. i just want to just smile for real and not be an edgy jaded fucker anymore.

I'm legit incel and it's one of my favorites

I feel robotic when I tell her everything...

another year on /lit/, still no novel.