/lit/ - Literature

>>13366604
>Be young
>start out in occult section, runes, magic spells
>move to hard core atheism in twenties
>try continental philosophy when you realise you can communicate well
>you start thinking it'd be funny to write a book about a priest
>do research
>get hooked on the lives of religious people >suddenly you're learning religious philosophy alongside communications theory and postmodernism
>you tap out when your life goes to hell
>suddenly the absurdity starts to make sense even though the ethics still are hard to swallow *snicker*
>"blessed mary...please forgive me...."
>can't do it, can't look away
>read more, feel like I'm becoming a monk anyhow
>read even more cause now you're well versed in the reasoning behind certain defenses of religious doctern
>feels good to do the work of gods, even with upholding the faith
>enjoy the art, enjoy the history
>don't enjoy the prostitutes stories of abuse
>don't enjoy hearing about sex scandles and money grubbing pastors
>desire to do more good works and seek a community of others to find comfort and peace with
>end up reading more books after doing more drugs and sleeping with more women
>think about taking some majic mushrooms and indulging in the occult again
>have strange visions and write them down
>people steal writings and laugh at me
>defend my writings and sulk
>wish I had more friends
>wish I wasn't a pervert
>wish I weren't so lonely
>engage in meditation and become sober
>dream again and see the sacred mushrooms but don't ascribe to it anything because no instantaneous meaning revealed itself to me
>go back to the ethics parts of religious people and shit on them so I can go back to fucking
>feel guilty
>read more diaries of priests and pastors and imams
>sort of excited to die cause then I'll know if I was wrong
>or at least not know
>forever
>be able to rest and not worry that I didn't live to my full potential

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>>12348393

>>12193198
>Since all life derives from the divine seed, it follows that the most powerful healing drug would be the pure, unadulterated semen of the god. Some plants were thought to have sap or resin approximating to this, their "purity" or "sanctity" in this regard being measured by their power as drugs to kill or cure or intoxicate. In Sumerian the words for "live" and "intoxicate" are the same, TIN, and the "tree of life", GEShTIN, is the "vine". Similarly in the Greek oinos and the Hebrew yayin, "wine", there is probably a common Sumerian root *IA-U-NU, "seman-seed."

>The use of the name Jesus (Greek iesus) as an invocation for healing was appropriate enough. Its Hebrew original, yehoshua', Joshua, comes from Sumerian *IA-U-ShU-A(ShUSh), "semen, which saves, restores, heals".

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>>12139834
Toot, toot; destiny beckons.
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*Sniff* *Sniff*
>That's a pretty corpse.

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>>12120974
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOQrI7FfAxo

modernism is pagan and what is pagan is inescapable from the roman's Catholicism. those who call themselves pagan are usually only larping and excusing their ignorance and those who deny the tradition within christian circles, especially American protestants, are not proper God fearing people, but self-righteous moralists whose access to agency is purposely limited. Without openness to sin, they cut themselves off to the sufferings of others and then even their tears for that suffering becomes an act of self satisfaction, just as the demiurge enjoys it.