/lit/ - Literature

i think i have missed every boat in my life, even though day to day i can deal with it, i don't feel any kind of transcendent or even fleeting happiness and i don't know if this is the actual default state or if i'm an emotionally dead wreck who burned myself out in my teen years and has lost the ability to feel human emotion.

i preferred my teenage years of frenzied hatred and insane fury, because i was capable of feeling strong emotions about my hellish situation.