/lit/ - Literature

I'm first time on /lit/ and I have no clue what the fuck I'm reading

How can one word mean more than one word?

>But it needed desperate courage to kill yourself in a world where firearms, or any quick and certain poison, were completely unprocurable. He thought with a kind of astonishment of the biological uselessness of pain and fear, the treachery of the human body which always freezes into inertia at exactly the moment when a special effort is needed. He might have silenced the dark-haired girl if only he had acted quickly enough: but precisely because of the extremity of his danger he had lost the power to act. It struck him that in moments of crisis one is never fighting against an external enemy, but always against one’s own body. Even now, in spite of the gin, the dull ache in his belly made consecutive thought impossible. And it is the same, he perceived, in all seemingly heroic or tragic situations. On the battlefield, in the torture chamber, on a sinking ship, the issues that you are fighting for are always forgotten, because the body swells up until it fills the universe, and even when you are not paralysed by fright or screaming with pain, life is a moment-to-moment struggle against hunger or cold or sleeplessness, against a sour stomach or an aching tooth.

>finished the hitch hikers guide to the galaxy series
>everyone dies in the last paragraph after an emotional and tortured showdown

So this is british comedy.

I have no real problems, its just whenever I have to deal with people anywhere especially at work I just come home and start hitting myself, crying, insulting myself and wanting to kill myself.
I'm 22 years old. I thought by now this pathetic infantile behaviour would have passed but it hasn't and it never will. How am I supposed to survive if I think and feel this way?
When I was NEET for 3 years I was the happiest I've ever been when I didn't have to talk to anyone or see anyone for days on end. But now I'm filled with dread and it feels like a weight is on my shoulders and I'm too weak to stay alive simply because I'm forced to be around other people.

So what can I read to stop being a whiny, emotionally weak, sensitive faggot?
Man is by nature a social animal and that. I can't leave society as that is impossible as there is nothing to hunt in the UK and I don't have enough money to buy land here or get a retirement visa in another country to stay there permanently and legally, no country is going to take me unless I marry or work or go as a student and that all means dealing with more people.

>>10384533
>guy is shy
What a creep, stop making me feel so uncomfortable.
HA FAGGOT!
Look, what a WEAK FAGGOT. quick point at him and laugh!
Are you sure you're not gay?
HAHA FAGGOT!
>girl is shy
Shes so modest its so endearing!

>a tour de force

>>9632249
>>9632251

>>9530078
>>9530099
do you faggots know what ostensible means

Didn't know Harold wrote when he was younger.

i dared my friend to ruin my life

he made 4chan my homepage

>>9148909
So that's why my books are disappearing.

>25. Harry Potter Boxed Set by J.K. Rowling

>>8746530
do you not like caché and days of heaven

>>8738115
>>8738111
what is a chaos wizard

>8th grade

>>8373222
>2016
>he's not a fallibilist

>>7234845
>implying I haven't
I was a Christian for a long time before I was an apostate, but apparently becoming an apostate means I couldn't have possibly understood the bible, church fathers and later theologians when I read them.

>this whole thread
I expect better from you /lit/

>>7210296
>80 on the interstate
>terrifying

>>7207135
Damn son I didn't even claim to have achieved anything anyone cared about. I'm a fucking nobody with some interesting stats is all. Is that really so hard to believe?

>>7205026
>untenable
I know that's a big boy word but it means that I could no longer in good conscience have faith in the God of the Bible because I had seen enough to decide he was an aberration of my own brain. I'm sure you have fun dressing up in you crusader costume and shouting about relativism but I didn't just "chicken out" of Christianity.

>>7204644
>he goes to community college
>he lives in Cuckneticut