/lit/ - Literature

>>12698119
It sounds like to me that the potential for social stigmatization is getting to you more than the actual porn itself. Who knows, maybe you actually like these categories but you "hate" yourself, because there's an inner conflict. You judge yourself based on what society would say about this porn, and since you like this porn, you don't like yourself.

Honestly, i think the best way to deal with this is in the very least to be honest with yourself. Is it the porn itself that you like but also somehow dislike (???) or do you like the porn, but you don't like yourself for liking it because of the stigma surrounding it?

I don't think trying to change your interests or fetishes for the sake of having more approval of yourself (because it would align with norms) is worth it. Because an attempt to change yourself, is an act of violence towards yourself, and it usually doesn't end very well.