/lit/ - Literature

I've been living with my family on a religious commune my whole life. I've gotten into a lot of conflicts about this recently and decided it's time to leave. My relationship with my family is strained right now and I hope a little distance will help mend the rift. I'm going to have to find a new job, new housing, a new car, new friends, and hopefully maybe even a girlfriend (which I've never had before). Figuring all of this out by myself feels so daunting, I'm still living at home so it doesn't feel *real* yet. I spend my days applying to jobs and looking for apartments, trying to find a shit box commuter. I stay busy during the day but I'm filled with anxiety during the night.

This change is a long time coming and I'm convinced is necessary. It's like I've had an extended childhood and it's all coming to an end in a single week. There's so much change in the air, it feels like the air is charged with electricity. I feel like Odysseus or a Nantucket whaler, I have to go on my heroes journey into the unknown, I finally feel like a man