/lit/ - Literature

I enjoy writing but it feels pretty useless when no one cares about my work. I don't obsess over become some classic author or anything but I'd like _someone_ to enjoy what I write. As it stands barely anyone reads my work and almost no one understands it. No one gets what I'm trying to articulate. My writing deals with dreams, visions, absent-minded thoughts, that kind of thing. How they mediate reality and the self. I wouldn't say it's particularly confusing or difficult, but it seems like no one wants to bother with something that's not "normally" written, for lack of a better word. Occasionally if I post here I'll get a couple positive replies. Anywhere else I post I usually get nothing.

I just don't know why I should bother. I'll keep coming up with stories, maybe even jot them down in draft form, but what's the point in working on them as a craft? So I can one day bind them all together in a book and look at my totally-unknown life's work?

I'm considering switching to something more normie-friendly like photography or drawing. Literature, or at least the kind of literature I want to write, seems pretty dead.

I'm sitting on my bed, the wind is shrieking outside and rain beats down like it has been the whole day. I have a felt blanket wrapped around me like some kind of cloak. It has kittens on it, I love the juvenility. I want to make some hot cocoa, but I'd have to wash out one of the pots sitting on my floor to make it. So I think I'll just sit for a while longer, listening to edgy music and watching the trees outside shake in the storm.

>"hey anon just want you to know that we care about you and you can talk to us if anything is bothering you!!!!"
>ok I'm feeling pretty despondent today because of x y and z
>"oh wow sorry to hear that."
Why the fuck did I fall for it again there have been like three people I've ever known who are actually willing to talk to you if you open up to them. Now I need to downplay to save face uggghhhhhh

I don't know how to make friends in the city.

Im writing a suicide note, or at least I will be soon. Im having trouble figuring out just about everything.
I had an idea of not writing one at all and instead writing a short diary/journal kind of thing. That way I wouldnt have to have a specific person of address (which is the biggest pain in the arse to decide) and could kind of come across as more sincere, aswell as I think Id be better able to go into all my reasonings without coming across as melodramatic (something hard to avoid when your talking about killing yourself). I figured Id write it as I kind of prepare for doing it.

I guess that sounds pretty pseudy and on the nose but I honestly dont think I could write a normal one. Its fucking difficult and Im not a good writer as it is but I dont want to leave in silence you know and potentially get people into shit. Even if I dont actually kms I still want to write one regardless.