/lit/ - Literature

>>23452848
>Be me
>29 y/o dude
>Worried about balding
>Spend 2 years growing out my hair to make a wig out of it for when I'm old and bald
>Finally long enough to get cut
>My mom begs me to just tell the salon people either that I'm donating it, or to "just say nothing" (???) because she thinks me making a wig out of my own hair sounds super weird and she's embarrassed
>She's pretty insistent and I don't want to disappoint her
>Go in
>Tell them I'm getting it cut to donate it
>Lady doing the cutting keeps singing my praises and saying how noble I'm being
>Still want to keep it
>Then ANOTHER staff member comes in and tells me how I'll be making a sick kid really happy
>FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK
>All done, go to check out
>Turns out the cut's FREE since I said I'm donating it
>Completely defeated
>Tip $15 for what should've been like a $7 tip
>Going to donate the hair now
Am I a shitty person? If I'm donating the hair in the end anyway then is it all good?

What do you do if you have opinions you don't like having?

Like, I'm a little bit racist, to the degree where most moderate normalfags would be upset with me if they heard my unfiltered opinions. But I don't like being like that; upsetting or outraging people.
But trying to change my opinions doesn't work because I read the counter arguments and just don't agree with them or see eye-to-eye with them. It certainly doesn't help that they're presented in a manner which is hostile to people who don't understand them.
I mean, I can't verily change my opinion based on feelings alone, and I've yet to be presented with compelling facts or perspectives to make me do so. So what the fuck do I do?

I think I'm malfunctioning.
I'm seemingly incapable of operating properly.
I struggle to hold a train of thought, and keep falling back into self destructive behavior.
I miss them so much. People say they know what I'm going through, but I doubt that unless they're far, far stronger than me.
Is it normal for grief to demolish your hairline? Is it normal to still be grieving nearly a year later? They were my everything.
I don't want to die, but I don't want to live right now.

I don't want to die, but I don't particularly want to live, either.
I want to hibernate until I have the energy to live. I want a timeout from time itself.

My tummy's going BLUGRRGRRLGUURGGUUUGGOOOOGBLGGRRGRR and I feel like a balloon.
Is this what pregnancy feels like? Am I pregnant with frosted mini-wheats and pizza?

Let's say you have a pet whose lymphoma has gotten to a stage where they wont eat, drink or move, and just scream out in agony whenever they shit themselves. Would a Buddhist find it wrong to get that pet euthanized?
What if you do it perhaps slightly early, to where your pet has a growth or mass in their chest that is causing much difficulty breathing, and it's getting worse incredibly fast. They aren't at the point where they wont eat, drink or move yet, but you don't want them to get to that point and know it's a matter of hours or days. Would a Buddhist find it wrong to get that pet euthanized?

If it isn't obvious, these hypotheticals are real, and even though it makes sense to prevent suffering, I still feel immense guilt over having played a hand in their deaths. I want to know if any religion would oppose what I've done, and Buddhism seems most likely to.

Is it acceptable to skip sections you really don't fucking care about in non-fiction books?

Like for example if I'm reading a memoir by a sailor who visited Japan in the mid-19th century, I can skip the chapters where he makes stops at Fiji and Hong Kong along the way, or if I'm reading a chapter on Syria's involvement in the Gulf War, I can skip the ten pages where the author is using everything he already went over to try and prove his horseshit foreign policy calculation, right?
Because in case 1, I'm reading to read about mid-19th century Japan from a foreigner's perspective, and in case 2, I just want a military overview on Syria against Iraq and don't give a fuck about the author's political thesis.

If this isn't okay, then I've probably only read 1/3rd of the history books I've actually read.

>Interested in an obscure historical conflict
>Track down and read a book about it
>Introduction addresses the reader as though they are certainly from the same town/county as the conflict in question place
>Feel alienated/unwanted by the author before I start reading
Am I the only one who encounters this problem/feels this way?
Battle of Cameron dam (The Battle of Cameron dam by Malcom Rasholt), Rowan County war (Days of Anger, Days of Tears by Fred Brown & Juanita Blair) for me. I've never even been to Wisconsin or Kentucky period.
(I would strongly recommend The Battle of Cameron dam, by the way.)

>>11702978
I admit I have a problem.
I want detailed accounts but they get repetitive a quarter way in.