/lit/ - Literature

>>11714267
>tfw you realize he was the original londonfrog all along

>landlord found the essay

I felt socially stunned and ignored my entire life. Elementary/Middle school was a blur of loneliness and independence. Once in high school I finally started to become outgoing and more social, but this was hard for a child who didn't make a real friend, and did real socially friend things until I was 13.

Now I'm in college, struggling to find happiness and to not be alone. Trying to make meaningful connections with others, but realizing it's not working. Both online and real life I've realized how asocial my behavior towards myself and others has caused.

It feels impossible to make a friend, much less find a partner. I just find connections with people so alien, and when I do form them I let my mental problems interfere and cause pain for everyone. I've lost so many friends because of this. I want to get better; but the problem is no one wants to help. And with good reason, we're all human with different problems; we shouldn't worry ourselves with people we find below us, like people do to me.

I'm graduating community college with an associates in IT and Computer Networking soon and I'm so terrified that it has all been for nothing. I'm terrified that I didn't make one single friend, connection, anything. Yet soon enough I'm going to be expected to not only be socially ready for something completely alien to me. I'm expected to preform greatly at it.

>>11524595
Just the plot to Neon Genesis Evangelion but in space and with less Askua. (Fight me)

Literally just the plot to Neon Genesis Evangelion but in space