/lit/ - Literature

>tfw my crush probably browses /lit/ but is right now even more probably deep inside his Stacy gf
>tfw he only comes to me when drunk to discuss Dostoyevski and how he will kill himself
>tfw he doesn't want to be with me because i'm too "mentally ill" despite me starting in therapy for his sake

what is it called when you're female and a cuck?

>be the bullied girl in school
>not wanting to sit in the lunch cafeteria by myself so always skip lunch and sit in the library reading instead
>feed of affirmation from teachers walking by and thinking i'm such a good, proper student ("good girl" stereotype)
>always wear black because muh depression
>mostly read shit like sylvia plath
>always hoping some qt literary guy would approach me and want to be with me because of my patrician taste in book - never happened

Hurts knowing what a fucking cliché I am. Kill me now

Y-yeah, these last couple of years were really so I could focus on "reading and writing".

I feel dead inside.
What does the outside smell like?
>inb4 salty coins and milk

but what if....