/lit/ - Literature

>>18615953
Someone said that ER's MTW and was so right about that. I mean, I am a middle aged person and I am hooked to his story and his world just because his youth was so similar to mine. He also was beautiful, intelligent and even talented, in spite of him being an outcast. I was that too, at least for half of my youth, after I got myself in better shape in my early twenties. Well I was always talented, and intelligent too, but not beautiful, for most of my teenage years. I was being bullied so I did not dare to take care of my looks, because having done so, I would have been punished by public humiliation or maybe even violence. Taking care of one's looks was the prerogative of the socially accepted kids back then and probably is even today. But yeah, watching his videos and reading his texts makes me heavily relate to him and gives me a lot of comfort when thinking about my youth of almost complete social ostracization and hatred from the opposite sex. Because I know there was someone else who experienced the same, yet was beautiful, intelligent and talented, and also became a famous figure post mortem. Knowing that makes me feel as if I also had some worth as a young person, even if all my peers thought that I was mentally disabled (or "retarded" in their language) and did not even want to talk to me as I did not know how to be like them, how to think, talk and act like they did. Also I have to say that my present situation of still being socially rejected and having suffered from the lack of sexual and romantic activity for decades plays into it.