/lit/ - Literature

>>22073916

I am glad. I don’t want people to think I know more than I do. I am just a guy who went through the same struggles a lot of people in this thread are experiencing right now. I grew up isolated and weird and thought I was superior to everyone around me because I was comparatively smarter. I had the whole nerd resentment complex against life But the truth was I was just socially awkward and afraid. I wasted a big chunk of my youth and experienced a lot of pain before I started to question my own self destructive ways. Many different books and life experiences have helped me grow as a person and I am still growing and trying to be a better person. In fact /lit/ even put me on to some good books years ago that positively changed my life. I promise any young guy who is reading this no matter what your situation is you can improve it and find happiness. I came close to suicide and total despair when I was younger but I committed to taking responsibility for myself and the people I love. Change is a slow process like a melting ice cube. You might not notice anything is happening to you at the time until you hit that degree and the ice cube melts. It’s very cliche and corny advise but it is still true that you have to take responsibility for yourself and make small cumulative choices in your habits and thoughts that are votes for the future person you want to be. And if an autismo turbo sperg like me can make it any one can.

>>22074019

It’s important not to give up. One of the best ways to break the ice with people is to ask question about them. It’s okay to be a little awkward. It took me awhile to stop overthinking everything I said to people and act semi naturally. If you are coming from a place of genuine niceness and interest in others you would be surprised at how well most people respond. I myself am a bit of an esoteric new age guy and I’ll be honest it very rarely comes up. Still I think you should not stress too much about finding something that 100% aligns with your interests. I can relate to feeling isolated from traditional religious people I grew up in a traditional literalist evangelical christian community. I used to look down on these people as closed minded, ignorant, and spiritually unserious people but now I think a little differently. Most traditional religious people are basically good folks even if they are more preoccupied raising their families than really pursuing higher spiritual truth. I have seen that sometimes earthy pursuits like raising kids are often a way to pursue a closeness to god, if you want to call it that. I would gently encourage you to consider experimenting hanging out in those communities if you can’t find something else. Try to see if there are smaller groups inside a church or some equivalent where you can just talk to people around your age. If you don’t want to do this maybe consider some nerdy hobby like local table top gaming. Maybe try taking up a dance class.

>>21700366
I bet you have to remember to breathe manually.

Go to https://www.dhammatalks.org/books/WithEachAndEveryBreath/Section0001.html

And follow the guided meditation and read the ebook. If you want to go further buy a copy of The Mind Illuminated but you should know to find true peace you will need to learn the Dharma.