/lit/ - Literature

Just going to dump some of my posts i made in the past, now that I found out there's an archive.

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got sent to the psych war after trying to an hero mostly from a type of existential depression. I saw the world as meaningless, and my suffering purposeless, without any overriding meaning to frame it within. my life at the time felt like meaningless purposeless suffering, which I didn't want to experience. I figured the dead can't be deprived of the possible future good experiences, so why not just end my suffering? my rational was this despair and hell would be gone (positive), and once the deed is done I wont exist to be deprived of what good I may have experienced (were I to continue living). So that's one neutral-positive and one positive.

I researched and took a huge quantity of prescription medications and alcohol, knowing that I would certainly die. Bu I didn't. I fell through my parents door (what I've been told - after bombing the medication I have no memory), who instantly called the cops and pumped my stomach. I spent 9 days in an induced coma, the doctors saying I was incredibly lucky to still be alive (I didn't feel lucky).

Existential depression is not something you get over. Rather it's a fundamental foundational relation you have between you, your values and he world around you. Once you understand that it's the truth (philosophical pessimism, nihilism, etc), there is no cure, no blue pill to take to rejoin society, caring about it's pathos, rules, values, and 'success'. Rather you just learn coping strategies, ways in which you can find humour or even a sense of self-satisfied elation - even smugness in the face of wanton needless despair/depression. You must learn to laugh at your misery, to find humour even in the depths of your hopelessness and despair, to look down with satisfied smugness and utter disdain and contempt for the hopeless depths of human suffering, to spit saliva through unbridled laughter mirth and humour - those genuine smiles known only through the eyes - at the absurdity of an existence which demands suffering

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Is what's fashionable/looks good/you like, or not, subjective to each person?

Or is there a fashion (what looks good and what doesn't) truth, in the same way there are objective moral truths (inb4 edgy nihilists).

Take one outfit and two people. One thinks it's dope and the other thinks it looks like shit. Who is right? Is the outfit dope, or is it shit, and how do we determine that? Are they both right? Neither?

What is the nature of fashion?