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>>19668223
I cannot think of a single thing that was worthwhile. Don’t even get me started on the garbage cafeteria food. In every area where I did the “right thing” and listened to the adults I paid for it. Don’t fight back with your bullies, well it just got worse and I destroyed any self respect I had. Always be on time, I would be exhausted and regularly fall asleep in class. Forcing myself to get up when I feel like passing out every morning to go to a place I hate on repeat has probably done some serious psych harm to me. I had a friend who was the exact opposite, always refusing to go, always skipping, always fighting, and he ended up getting expelled and doing some homeschool thing. Everyone was saying he’s screwed etc. wrong, his life is fucking great. He actually learned what he was interested in, has a huge amount of memories and experiences traveling, had amazing girlfriends and has a great one now. I am not jealous or angry at him or anything just bitter it didn’t happen to me. Frankly I don’t even need that, if I could start fresh with none of the endless psychological trauma school inflicted on me but I would have to trade everything I learned or did in school I would do it in a heart beat. I could relearn everything from scratch inside of a year while working full time if I was so inclined.

I remember when I first had a dream of bashing one of my teachers head in. I was not a violent child and was very sensitive so it was shocking but I got pushed to that point. I would rather have spent all the time I spent in school in jail, I guarantee I would have learned more if I had access to the library and been much more psychologically intact provided the other inmates didn’t beat or rape me.