/lit/ - Literature

I have been reading a lot of Japanese history lately. Most of what I have read has been fairly modern, from the late Edo Period onwards, though I have also gotten a little into the late medieval stuff. I would like to get into the ancient history, like Jomon-Yayoi-Kofun periods, but I don't know where to start. Can I get some book recommendations on these periods of Japanese history? I can read in English and in German.
>inb4 go to /his/
No, I want to read books.
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I read Decline and now I feel like my head is broken. I still have my religious faith, but I feel even more disconnected from the world as a whole than I used to. I'm afraid that someone will try and succeed at converting me to some ideology and radicalizing me, but I have managed to avoid this both times others have attempted (an antinatalist and a dialectical materialist). I have come to resent the government and the social norms where I live, and have little regard obeying any law I can break without harming others. How do I fix my head without going to a "convent" (I don't know the proper English word for what I mean?)?