/lit/ - Literature

I experience constant suicide ideation(random thoughts of me dying, even if I don't plan on killing myself)

At 15 I started the habit of performing a gun motion to my head and pulling trigger, still do it to this day. I do this in awkward, cringe worthy or hopeless situations.

Think about suicide and disease as a way to guilt family, crave this attention.

Lack of remorse for my habitual lies.

Sometimes steal from stores. Don't feel guilty about the act itself, only worry about getting caught.

Absolutely no value for human life, would sacrifice the lives of 100,000 random people for $100.

No hesitation to lie for my benefit

I'm afraid of the dark, I imagine demonic horror humanoid figure is about to kill me at ant moment. it has a smile.
When I go up stairs in the dark always leads to climax at to of stairs where I imagine it will stab me from behind through my chest with a pike-like arm.

Constantly look back when walking places, always feel like I'm being watched.

For a long time now I've had ideas that I am God. I crafted this life for myself and erased my memories so as to experience and enjoy it. After I die I'll choose the next life I want to reincarnate into. This is honestly my ideal afterlife, living different lives eternally.

I say out loud how I should feel in scenarios. for example, I see an old lady who needs help with heavy stuff at work. I don't help her and say out loud to myself, "man I feel guilty for not helping her". In reality I don't feel guilty about it.

I cut off really strong bonds and long term friends easily.

I'm unsure of what I want to do in my life. All I know is I want money, prestige, power. but so does everyone else.

I look down on other people for being vocal about their mental health, hate attention seekers that talk about their made up self-diagnoses. However even if I don't talk about it I've always wanted to be different.

I want to have a major impact on the world, good or bad. would love to be a polarizing figure that has people vehemently support/attack me.

The reason I'm telling you all this is because I crave the attention you'll give me and I've always wanted to be labeled as special or different.

>A book that will make people who dislike reading change their minds on books.

Does such a book even exist?