/lit/ - Literature

>>13889086
I'm not sure if I qualify as a genius, but my IQ consistently tests in the 145-160 range. I am in my mid 20s now and my experience has been the following: Be naturally good at math, finish a year early, go to university, do a math B.Sc. followed by a Ph.D. Had the choice between staying at university as an adjunct (shitty pay for teaching undergrads and slaving away for professors) or wageslaving and at least earning decent money. Worked 40 to 60 hours weeks in finance, then in CS. Hated my life, got depressed. Went back to university to study philosophy, because I did not know what else to do. Now I'm stuck in the same situation again, I have no idea what to do with my life. I'm not particularly attractive either, nor have been born into wealth and power, so there is no way for me to obtain social gains.

Everywhere I look it is 2 choices: to either become part of the dysfunctional academic bureaucracy or to slave away for our market economy. I could've probably made use of my intelligence, if I was given the means to, but as it stands, it's practically useless. There is nothing I have contributed to human society that is worthwhile, and I presently cannot imagine a way of life that would allow me to do that, despite becoming a social recluse. Artists and monks probably have a more fulfilled and yet also more productive existence than me, despite my genius IQ. What do I do with my life, Anon? Is it really just hopeless?

>>13817020
Bumb before I sleep

I am battling same sex attraction. I'm searching for any literature (and discussion of it) that might help me in my struggle to resist the temptation of the flesh and my heart (e.g. ex-gay books or books that provide advice or comfort to those wrestling with this sin). I've already read a few books on the topic:
>The Bible and Homosexual Practice: Texts and Hermeneutics
>Same-Sex Attraction and the Church: The Surprising Plausibility of the Celibate Life
>Washed and Waiting: Reflections on Christian Faithfulness and Homosexuality
>Be Not Deceived: The Sacred and Sexual Struggles of Gay and Ex-Gay Christian Men
>Pertinent portions of the Bible
I'm currently working my way through Libido Dominandi. I realize this is a niche subject, but I need any sort of knowledge that will allow me to effectively combat this sin.