/lit/ - Literature

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>Third year into psychology degree
>Take third-year level Philosophy of Mind course (analytic bend)
>only attend for tests, never made the effort to learn what my marks were after the fact
>course syllabus states either we can write two shorter papers with set multiple due dates, or do one long paper on any topic covered in the class due by end of the semester provided it was 25~ pages as we could work on it any time
>heard prof talking to a student prior to the third test, one week prior to the end of the course, about AI offhand
>decide to write a paper on the Chinese Room and the Systems reply
>complete the paper five days later
>nearly throwing up everyday because my absence for the near entirety of the course was not because I was foolhardy or confident, but a mix of anxiety and lethargy and I just then realized what I had done
>day after I slide my paper under his office door look up reviews of him by students in an attempt to console myself
>"attend class or you will not pass" / "hard maker"
>feel totally groundless, did this for four of my classes except one (had to go meet two of them and give a sob story so I wouldn't be kicked out of the course for never attending)
>did study like mad in all my classes for what it was worth
>night prior to when grades are supposed to come out on the university website
>head tingling, stomach feels like it is in orbit, heart thumping like a jackrabbit
>finally work up the nerve to see my marks; heart feels like it is imploding
>lay eyes on the computer screen
>most successful academic year yet
>actually got an A+ in the course
>have a carefree summer

on the other hand, i have no clue what i am going to do come graduation having made no friends or connections yet

i've only ever read philosophical texts out of my own volition

i think german idealism is cool